Tumble On Over

I think I'm just going to post my blogs on Tumblr now. I like the format a bit better and it seems silly to type out my day on 2 different websites. Just go to my page on Tumblr. It is http://riotross.tumblr.com/

Thanks to everyone who takes the time to read a little about my life. Hope you continue too. I might still post on here once in a while. I know for sure I'll still keep up with your blogs on blogspot. You know who you are. <3

-Riot!Ross

Bummer

So my weekend didn't turn out like I thought it would. Santa Cruz was a bummer (tired of talking about it) and today was not as relaxing as I thought. I wasn't able to see that movie with my mom, instead we had to go all the way down to San Mateo for my twin cousins' 26th birthday..and they live in Hercules. Maan. I'm tired.

I think the whole extra practice on Tuesday is ridiculous. 2.5 hours....WHAT???! I don't know when I'm going to find any time to study for my APUSH exam that was postponed to Thursday. Practice 3 days in a row=not fun.

I put a more precise post on my other blog on tumblr. Check it out if you like. I posted the link before.

Free Weekend

This week is finally over and I survived it. It was a jam packed week of prep for our band comp and all the school work I had. I hope I did OK on the 3 test I took today. I'll knock on my "Lucky" necklace I bought yesterday on the CSF field trip.

Tomorrow is finally Saturday! I'm extremely excited because 1. Santa Cruz 2. Hanging with my friends in SC 3. Seeing Doug!!! 4. Seeing a bunch of alumni who are going to support us 5. Trotter is going...whoa :) and 6. Trots moved the exam to Thursday so I can actually enjoy my weekend!!

I finally got my old music off of my other lap top today. I had to download the latest version of itunes so my ipod would be compatible with it. I have 1200 songs now and I could have way more. I wish I had more time to download stuff.

The structure and parts (except for Brian's) in Air Freshener seem pretty good. It's just really hard balancing the sound on stage. ugggh.

-Riot!Ross

I Can't Wait.....

^ This guy above is from the movie "Good Night and Good Luck" I just find this photo completely amusing. haha.

So AP finished recording "Can't Wait" today. It sounds great. I'm really happy with it. I hope we get to perform it one day. Air Freshener is really coming together. I just hope the breakdown/solo section is perfect by auditions. I love it! I love Brian is always talking and working on it too. Complete dedication. lol.

I was having a pretty good day until I went to Chem. I don't what happened. It was like, I was messing around with boo (Jette) and then I couldn't get this one problem for some retarded reason and I just instantly got into a bad mood. I eventually got out of at home when I really needed to concentrate on retaining APUSH info. I hope I do well on that exam next week.

I can't wait for Saturday to get here. I want to see Doug!! I haven't seen him in 2/3 weeks. It's ridiculous. I wish I could see him as much as Janessa and Jackie get to see their bfs... Oh well.

-Riot!Ross

Help Wanted

I love Berkeley. Telegraph has some of my favorite stores and it is amazing. (besides all the homeless crack heads and the people yelling "legalize it!") It was nice to spend time away from my computer and all my school work. I wish I had more time away from it all.

I bought a sweater vest from Urban Outfitters and an acid wash tee from American Apparel. While I was in the dressing room at AA, my mom was talking to one of the guys who worked there. lol. Then she asked the girl at the counter what age you had to be to work there and she said either 16 or 18. If I could get a job (which I can't because of school and band) I would totally work there. The girl told me to bring in a resume one day because they needed more help. They don't even have applications. Just think. I could get a job there.

Another week of school coming up. It's going to be a busy one too. I hope I survive.

-Riot!Ross

Tumblr

I made a Tumblr earlier today. I know Jackie likes hers so I decided to try it out. It'll be kind of weird since I also want to continue with this blog haha. I'll have to decide what I want to put on each. Maybe the other one will be my "what inspires me" type of thing, while this is just my general, what happened, vent, "joy" post, like a diary. We'll see.

Check it out at http://riotross.tumblr.com

I've been working on my portfolio for APUSH all night and I'm finally done. I pretty much like it, but I'm still going to send it to Trotter to see what he thinks about it. I hope I proved my point. I used a lot of facts, which I hope isn't bad. I spent a lot of time on it. I hope I don't have to totally revamp it. yikes!

Oh, the tour at The Academy of Art was amazing. I toured the fashion, animation, photography, and housing areas. Everything is super rad and I really want to pursue photography. I know it will be hard, but I love how they give everyone a chance. A portfolio isn't needed and you can be a complete beginner...as long as you a true passion for what you want to learn.

This girl my mom and I met during the tour is inspirational. I thought we barely had anything at our school, but compared to her school we are super cool. They only have 62 students, have no dances, and no electives like art or ANYTHING! It's in Santa Fe, New Mexico. Sounds pretty depressing. I'm pretty confident that she'll get her wish to leave that drab place. She has a dream of being in animation and I hope she succeeds.

-Riot!Ross

Rebel With a [good] Cause

I've decided to stop writing my portfolio on Anne Hutchinson because I fear that I may go insane if I continue. It's funny how I'm slightly interested in becoming a journalist, but I hate writing these reports. I guess the difference is, I'm not really interested in writing about Anne being a rebel. She's cool and I'm all for rebels with a good cause, but it's hard to write about. I'm never sure exactly what my teachers are looking for so I always doubt myself.

I wish we could just write essays like writing blogs. It's just emotion and flows way better. Trotter said that everyone did pretty bad on the DBQ's. I thought I was going to get a 6 or 7 but I actually got a 5. maaan. I earned the highest score though, so I guess that's pretty cool.

Mom keeps saying I'm doing a really good job and working hard, but shouldn't be so hard on myself. The problem is, I spend most of my time slaving over homework and seem to still do really really well, but I want to be on like Brian and Jackie's level. I use to be that "smart girl" in like elementary school. I still am i guess since I'm ranked 3 or 4 in my class, but I'm my hardest critic. I never feel like I shine like I should because I feel overshadowed by others.

I can't wait for my tour at The Academy of Art University in SF tomorrow though. It's going to be a lot of fun to walk around the spread out campus and see the actual photography department. I hope I succeed in this whole photography thing. I don't know what else I'll do which is a scary thought. I always change my mind, but I want to stick to this one.

-Riot!Ross

PS. I wish I could win that Pit Photography sweepstakes. <3
PSS. I miss him...

Fresh

Today was pretty ok. Of course I still have a ton of school work and my back hurts, but I'm fine. It's a good feeling when I'm not completely stressing out. I hate that feeling when I feel like I'm losing my mind. It's a great feeling when I can understand something in school when I didn't before. It's such a relief.

I have a feeling *knock on wood* that "Air Freshener" is going to be an Epic sound.

A few minutes ago I was on myspace and came upon one of my old classmates page. She has changed so much it's sad. She use to be a a girl who was a tom boy and hung out with all the skater guys and girls. Now she's still a skater girl, but wears clothes that barely cover her. I've heard a lot of terrible stories about her from her older sister that was in band with me. What happened? She had to move away, that's what happened.

My break from HW was over 5 minutes ago. I guess I should finish APUSH.

-Riot!Ross

Dinner Time

I passed. Better yet, I got an A+. Oh, I'm guessing you're wondering on what. Well I got an A+ on my APUSH exam!!!! I was so happy. All that studying payed off. Brian STILL beat me..but whatever, he's boy genius and I'm happy for him. I'm happy for all of us.

Journalism was very productive today. I added 3 articles to the paper and I still have to add 1 more so far. I basically have my own music page. It should be titled, "Jenay's Beats" or "Jenay's Music Page". That would rad. I won't have to worry about the whole number of word thing since all my articles will count as double. yeeee!

Although a lot of good things were happening today, Chemistry still hampered my mood. I was getting really confused (probably because I was tired) and it just threw my good mood out the window. That stress factor heightened again, but I got starbucks. haha. Doug called me too and it made me feel a little better. I miss him.

I really hope we made auditions of this Friday. I'm knocking on wooden and praying to God. Well, maybe not the praying part.

I have so much on my plate right now. I'm just going to focus and devour the meal up.

-Riot!Ross

With Them By My Side

I just finished studying for my APUSH exam. I studied for at LEAST 8 hours. That's 8 hours of reading stuff that makes me want to fall asleep. I sure hope I get at least a decent grade. Man, 85 questions in 55 minutes. That's sure intimidating. All I can do is zap into my brain and do the best I am possible of. I'll try not to stress tomorrow.

I lost a lot of studying time yesterday when mom and I went over to Kc's house. We always end up staying super late talking about stuff going on at school. Her mom is hilarious. I love how Kc and I have been friends for so long. I love that girl.

I don't think I blogged about Friday, so if I did, oh well, I'm going to talk about it anyway. I actually didn't feel stressed out. Brian is great. He kept asking if I was feeling better than Thursday. I don't know what I would do without my friends, especially Janessa, Jackie, and Brian. We seem to have each others backs this year. It's great how we've all become so close. With them by my side, there's nothing I can't do.

I hate how I can't see Doug everyday like I could last year, but now that he goes to DVC and has a job, it's a little difficult. I can sometimes see him once a week max. It's hard, but I hope we can make it through. He's been really supported of me when I stress out. He always tells me I'll be fine. I love his encouragement. Maybe I'll see him Friday if AP is able to perform during lunch. I hope so...

-Riot!Ross

"Breathe In, Breathe Out"

I meant to blog about my day yesterday, but it completely slipped my mind until I shut off of my computer. =/

Yesterday was my grandpa's 80th birthday. As he gets older and as I get older it worries me a bit, but I try not to think about it. Papa may look 70 but in reality he isn't. The time line of life is never known. I hope there will be MANY more years to come where I can wish him a Happy Birthday. I wish that for all my loved ones.

Auntie Vanita and Uncle Austin came to pick up Frisco too. You won't believe what Auntie brought back from New York City for me. She gave me a really cool pair of pants, this rad $60 belt (holy Jesus), and she paid me $200 (!) for taking care of Frisco. That's over $20 something dollars a day. Insane! I wish I was a millionaire. She is so generous. I have to make sure to spend it wisely like always. I really want that new camera.

School is still overwhelming. We received our progress reports yesterday and it looks like I have earned a 4.2 so far! I hope I can maintain it for the rest of the month until the grading period ends.

I hate being such a downer at school. I'm always in a terrible mood, but I can't help it. At times I just feel like shutting down. I hate when people ask if I'm ok. It feels like they have to ask it too many times now. I don't want to be the "death" of the party.

Love is beginning to become a really weird thing for me. I want to feel that amazing connection, but I seem to have slightly lost it. It scares me. =/ I see how Craig comes to school 2/3 times a week after college just to see Janessa. I envy her sometimes. I envy Jackie too for how she can never stop smiling.

I've never really been really religious but I find myself gaining my strength from the will I have within myself and the hope that God will help me through this all. Some people say Senior year is the "relax" year, but I think it'll be the exact opposite for me next year.

-Riot!Ross