Keep Your Head On Straight

All of us (meaning my friends and I ) all seem to follow the same pattern that leads to tiredness. It always ends in stressing out and super sleepiness. Thank God for contemporary music (although that's stressful at times haha) I need to just calm down before I have like an anxiety attack or something.

Speaking of attack, what the heck is Doug thinking???! The Navy? Has he gone insane. Everyone I told so far said yes. I hope he isn't serious. It's so random and not thought out. He can't leave. He can't leave me. He can't leave life. He needs to just stick to his original communications plan. It's a lot safer.

I feel like Asian Persuasion is reaching the top of CM. We've done so well so far. Everyone loved our ballad today. It was just a rough draft thing..but we were the only ones finished haha. "You guys were perfect" =]

I am going to eat some icecream and chill with my mom. I need life to calm down. It's getting kind of overwhelming to live.

-Riot!Ross

Life Is Suffocating

I wish I had more time for myself. I feel like I'm always doing homework or something that my mom wants to me do. It's a little overwhelming. Maybe I'm overreacting a little, but I would appreciate it if my mom would leave me alone when I was online. I understand maybe I'm on it too much. But in reality, I'm not. I have to check up on updates and mail and that takes morathan five minutes. I feel like I'm doing a freaking sin when I go on cause she always gives that "On again?" look. Well, excuse me if I work hard on hw for hours. I think I deserve a little time online.

I feel like such a Fall Out Boy fan slacker. I've been keeping up with stuff, but not like I use to. That might be a good thing though. I used to be overly obsessed with them. haha. I can't believe I'm most likely not going to the FTSK show in october...just because it's a school night. Most of the shows I've been to have been on a school night. I wish my mom would just let me and Janessa go. I need to see Kyle, Joe, and K Dirty!! maan. I am going to be in such a bad mood during band practice that day. Gay.

I've notice that I go through a lot of mood swings. At one moment I'm as happy as could be, then I'm super sad or annoyed. I hate that feeling. Oh, and isn't it bad that sometimes I feel like I never want to wake up in the morning. I would think so. I think I'm just really stressed out and tired. I hope this past soon.

-Riot!Ross

Don't Stop Believing

I feel amazing right now. (Well besides being tired and having back pains) But I got an A on my chem test!!! Holy cow. I am extremely excited. I can't believe I actually did well on it. I'm so happy. I guess my simple logic helped me out.

So CM was not productive today since ALL of the pianos were in use. We really need more pianos so all of us can be able to work. I wish we didn't have to do a ballad. Jeremy feels like there can't be guitar in it...but he'll make it work. I feel like there can be. I want like two "Face melting, goose bump giving, almost to tears" guitar solos in it. I might play the piano part I wrote on keyboard and change the setting to strings. That would be super rad. I want it to be emotional and beautiful. I'll cross my fingers. I really do need to calm down in CM though. Things bother me to easily.

Well, gonna spend some time with my mom.

-Riot!Ross

I Wish: I could get more sleep and less work

Want to know why I'm excited for tomorrow?? I'm excited because I get to sleep in an extra hour earlier like everyone else who doesn't have A Period. Mr. Foreman has been having troubles with his blood pressure and is on the verge of having a heart attack, so he is getting tested tomorrow morning..which means no A Period! Hooray! I've been hating getting up early then having to be in a class that I don't even really enjoy.

Today's chem test was nerve racking. I hope I did ok. All throughout the test you could hear people sighing, groaning, and tapping things nervously. Hopefully we'll get our scores back soon.

I was in a bad mood today. I woke up with it I think and nothing really helped it throughout the day. I eventually got over it. I'm just tired, yet I stay up to check my mail and other stuff. I'm so over high school right now. At times I want to get away from it all. I would love to just sleep in my bed all cozy. I have two more years though and college will probably be just the same. I hope I can make it as a photography. I would be extremely happy to do that. I need to log off of this addicting contraptions and go to bed. My eyes hurt from the bright screen but I just can't seem to stop updating everything.

-Riot!Ross

PS...A ballad concert. Are you kidding me Mr.TFore? What a bore fest. *I cross my fingers that ours works out though. X]

Sister Frozen Holy Water

Today was a lot of fun. I have to say, volunteering with friends is way more fun. I've been volunteering since I was like 6 years old and it usually got boring. It was cool at KQED. Before, I only picked up the pledge slips. This time I was able to get into the action. Super cool. Lawrence, another volunteer, was hilarious. With comments like "Sister Frozen Holy Water" and "The governor's wife hasn't eaten since '82" had Jackie, Pat, Janessa and I cracking up.

I'm glad we went to the Haight today too. Jackie had never been so it was rad to take to her all the thrift stores and Stussy/True. True was having a HUGE sale. It was like heaven dipped in chocolate. I only bought a dark blue beanie with a rim though. They would only let people try on dresses and pants. LAME. The sales were final. I didn't want to end up not fitting those t shirts I wanted.

Everyone seems to have moved away to college. =[ Well, not everyone, but everyone not going to community college. Marshall moved all the way to Pomona, while Andrew and Kurt moved up to Davis. Hope they come down to visit. I'll miss those guys. I'll make sure to visit them when I'm around there area..for sure!

I'm super scared about my chem test tomorrow, but I think I finally understand it. I just hope I can comprehend everything tomorrow during the test. That class is so all over the place with instruction. I love Machado as a person but as a teacher...not so much. =/

-Riot!Ross

The Producer

My cold is finally dwindling down to almost nothing. I'm so glad to feel almost normal. I can't function correctly when I'm sick. It sucks to be sick when I have a lot of school work to get done too, so I'm glad it's basically over.

I felt really productive today. I spent most of my time working on hw and even cleaned some of the house for mom. I usually don't have time to help out anymore (not that I'm complaining) but it was nice to help out. Now I've been online just browsing around like always.

Oh yeah! Uploaded our first performance video on Asian Persuasion's myspace. Go look us up and check it out. I love my band. All that stressing payed off.

Tomorrow I'll be doing some community service at KQED with my mom, Jacke, Janessa and Pat. It should be fun. We'll be answering phones and taking down info from people who want to donate/etc. It'll be in the city. I love the city. It's a great place to take photos.

I'm having a really good conversation with Doug on AIM right now. We're talking about the time we first started talking to each other almost a year ago, other "beginning stuff", and some other things. haha. It's cool to talk about.

-Riot!Ross

Taking Shape

Today was "Great Success!" I did good on my APUSH Quiz and I think I did well on my other tests. Asian Persuasion was chosen to play last during the show today! That means we were the best! It was kind of nerve racking though since the time was coming close to thte end of lunch. We made it though and completelu rocked the stage. We did so well! Everyone loved it and we had great stage presence. I had so much fun. All of us have been coming up with ideas for songs too. Things seem to be taking shape now.

First Pep Band game tonight. It looks like it'll be super cold as always..hopefully it doesn't rain. Doug's not going...oh well. I saw him earlier but didnt have much time to talk to him....

Maaan, everyone is leaving. Andrew and Kurt are leaving for Davis tomorrow and Marshall is leaving for Pomona. I'm gonna miss those guys. I'm sure I'll see them on their breaks...hopefully.

Oh yeah. I love how all the hip-hop groups in CMW love us. They are super supportive. I love those guys. Like Carl says, "You guys are slappin!!" haha.

-Riot!Ross

PS. Brandon Voorhies is officially our "groupie" lol.

Next: Fun Times

I am completely excited for tomorrow. It's going to be a fun filled day...besides the three test I have. That's beside the point though. Asian Persuasion will be performing for the first time tomorrow! Hooray! Our whole performance is going to be off the chain..ok old saying but I'll use. I can't wait to wear my new dress tomorrow for our show. It reminds me of Katy Perry. She is amazing.

The next fun thing will be the first pep band game. Thank god I'm starting to get over my cold. Hopefully I'll be ok tomorrow. I'm not exactly exicted for my piccolo "solo" in Holiday (a Green Day Song) because it's so high and hurts my fragile throat, but It'll be rad I guess. I'm hoping it won't be too cold tomorrow night. I hate when it's freezing out there during football games.

Again, my writing seems super choppy and all over the place lately on this blog. I need to get my thoughst more organized...

-Riot!Ross

Under the Weather

Why did I have to catch a cold? My head feels like it's going to explode and my nose is plugged up like an old man's ears at a concert. At least my throat isn't super dry anymore. I hope my cold passes quickly.

Tomorrow are the auditions for the first School House Rocks (yes...I think the name should be changed) I'm nervous. I hope we rock out hard. 11 bands are auditioning and only 5/6 bands will be chosen. *cross fingers.* *knock on wood*

I've been working on the AP myspace. It's going pretty well. We are gaining a lot of profile views and friends. Can't wait to add music and videos to it.

So I just lost my chain of thought... later readers. <3

-Riot!Ross

PS. Love you Janessa. Things will be ok.

PPS. Happy 3 Months Doug...well tomorrow that is. Love Love!

We Can Work It Out

Most of the day was pretty calm instead of stressful. I almost freaked out in CM because Jeremy was sick and didn't show but things worked out. I HAD to talk to Mr. Foreman about adding a guitarist to Asian Persuasion and things worked out. Ashley's band is breaking apart after this first assignment and don't want Ariel. He's a really good guitar player and will help us out in "Kiss Me". He'll hopefully become our 2nd guitarist too. Yess. He can play things by ear! Genius.

I feel like I haven't seen or talked to Doug in sooo long even though I saw him last Friday and talk to him through text everyday. I actually was able physically talk to him on the phone today. It was nice. I was able to explain all the band drama to him. Miss him. We're both so busy and he's always working now. Oh, well...we'll find time. At least I hope so.

-Riot!Ross

"...then the band will self-destruct."

Another drama filled day. Didn't I say I wanted a drama free year. Yeah right! I believe that will never happen. Funny thing is, all the drama is in something that I'm suppose to love and enjoy, band. The main reason for all the stress, frustration, and wishes to quit come from the sarcastic..blah blah, that Mr. Foreman is. I can't believe how he treated Janessa and others in the band. For one, she didn't yell. Two, calling her parents really?? Three, he was just mad someone finally spoke up. He's a huge drama QUEEN and everyone is tired of it.

I basically named this blog from my new quote. It came from the conversation about what if we all quit band. I was saying if I quit band, then my mom would quit being band booster president and without her the band would self destruct. lol. It's kind of sad once you think of it..but also so hilarious. The band is basically made up of the Junior class. How sad.

Yet, we won't quit. We won't quit because of our friends, scholarships, looking good on applications and of course the fun. (besides the foreman stuff)

Besides the band stuff, I'm also nervous about CM. I seriously hope that Jeremy can get down his part. The rest of us have our parts down, so we just have to be patient and wait on him. We have until Tuesday. Just have to have a little faith. I had this vision of a super rad band that just blew everyone away. I hope that vision will still exist. I kind of miss Cas Ven...

I really need to sleep. Tomorrow is picture day and I don't know what I'm wearing. I guess it doesn't really matter though. They only catch the very top of every one's torso and then their head. haha. Night night cyberspace. Stay safe.

-Riot!Ross

PS. I'm tired of these rant post. :[ sorry.. oh I mean "my bad"

Fun Time and Tag Time

I was tagged by Jackie Lee..so I guess I'll type out my list.

16 Things You May or May Not Know About Me:

1. I'm my hardest critic.
2. I'm "Blackinese"
3. My phone is being retarded and I need a new one
4. I've never met my father and don't really care
5. I say I don't care what people think about me, but I think I do :[
6. I have huge dreams, but a shaky reality
7. I hate my hair at times.
8. I stress WAY too much
9. My mom is my hero
10. I would be depressed without my ipod
11. I seriously need some water right now. (so hot!)
12. I'm obsessed with trying to connect with people in bands
13. "It's hard to be smart."-Craig
14. I save all my concert and movie tickets
15. My room defines me and my life
16. I love a huge variety of music

Ok, done. I tag anyone who read this...lol

Today was a lot more fun than I thought it would be. It was SO hot though. St. Pat's chili was the bomb! It was super chill to sit by the pool by Jackie's after. (wish I could of swam..freaking female problems.. :[ ) They "water sports" games they were playing were hilarous. Pool and basketball was the funniest.

BBQ tomorrow at Bri-Man's house. Jacob must be 10 feet tall. haha.

-Riot!Ross

Suffocating

Bluntly, I broke down in tears when I got home from band practice yesterday. I hate crying. It makes my eyes and head hurt. It also makes my eyes super red and puffy. I also feel that when I cry I'm just not keeping it together. Ever since middle/high school, I find myself breaking down more and more. I stress out so much. Here is why yesterday was a TERRIBLE day:

1. Vintage "Gay" got the room that we asked and worked for. Flipping a coin...?? Really Mr. Foreman... >_<
2. School is barely letting me breathe

3. Mr. Foreman is a donkey

4. Gave me a dirty look because my mom didn't answer ONE of his calls. He said he called several times. WHATEVER LIAR.

5. Switched me to flute for the march to "try it out"

6. I'm guessing you can tell that I'm not very happy with him..lol

So all the pressure just built up and I couldn't handle it. My mom even asked if I wanted to quit band. I couldn't do that though. I'm only staying because of my friends (aka family).

Today was a little better. Tons of work still and it's SUPER hot everywhere I go. I hope I can make it this year. This is definitely not good for my health.

I'm happy with our band (Asian Persuasion! *thanks Joe*) Jeremy fits in so well with all of us. I hope our first cover, "Kiss Me" (New Found Glory version) goes well. I already memorized it. We MUST do amazing. I need to prove that we are Rad..hopefully we are.

-Riot!Ross

1st Day Breakdown

Today was the first day of school and I'm already tired and stressing out. I think school is unhealthy for me since my stress levels are sky high. My mom said, "You're gonna have more gray hairs than me." I bet she's right. haha.. :[

So English seemed ok i guess. I could predict almost everything that she was going to throw our way since Andrew gave me all of his work and stuff. It'll help a lot, but of course I will do all the work myself. I'm not a cheating maniac it's against what I believe in.

Contemporary music was a little strange. I miss all of the people that graduated. It didn't feel the same. It was cool that Craig stopped by. Oh, and we BETTER get that back room. I've been requesting it since the last day of school. (and poor brandon has no home in that class yet.)

Pre-Calc seems to be so-so..so far. I hope I can keep up. Ms. Hayden said it shouldn't be any harder. I just need to stay focused. Uggh. I sit next to Meg Perth. Oh well, she's quiet and on the other side of my I have V and Jackie. *yay* (Having lunch after this period is weird)

Journalism was mostly talk today about the newspaper. I still don't get why Sana is the editor. hmmm. (sorry is you read this lol)

Holy Moly History God. APUSH is frightening. My boots( if I had a pair) are shaking with terror. I love Trotter, but man is this year going to be hard. I'll some how get through it. It would be amazing if I passes the exam. I would be in bliss. (I'd probably cry tears of joy too.)

Last but not least..(ok maybe least), people were right about Chemistry. Mr. Machado does speak all over the place. AND he definitely says "hella", "hecka", and "totally" way much. "It's hella dead." is one of my favorite quotes now. lol. He's so corny is funny. Love that guy though. Bassist stick together! (Oh and I think the whole grade/seating deal is hilarous)

So I'll keep you posted on how I will surive my junior year. Hope it goes well.

-Riot!Ross

Let The Games Begin

Tomorrow a new journey begins. That journey is called Junior Year. I'm bummed out that summer vacation will officially be over tomorrow. Now homework and band will fill up all of my time. Junior year is suppose to be the hardest of them all and I am scared to death. Here are a few guidelines for myself:

1. Do well in school. (Stride for that 4.0+)
2. Do well in band. ("I'll do it for the band.")

3. Make mind-blowing music in CM.

4. NEVER GIVE UP

5. Respect myself and those who respect me.

6. Keep my beliefs and stay true to my heart.

So hopefully everything runs smoothly. I'm hoping drama doesn't break out, but it usually does over stupid things. I just can't let it bother me. I'm glad I have such good friends though. I love those guys. It's also super rad that Jackie and I have the same schedule. That's exciting!

I NEED to figure out what I want to do in life. I need to get really serious about photography or something. If I go into senior year without an answer to questions like, "Where do you want to go to college?" or "What do you want to do after school?" I might go crazy. I hate not knowing because it completely scares me. It also makes me feel really lame. I just have to stay focused.

-Riot!Ross