Suffocating

Bluntly, I broke down in tears when I got home from band practice yesterday. I hate crying. It makes my eyes and head hurt. It also makes my eyes super red and puffy. I also feel that when I cry I'm just not keeping it together. Ever since middle/high school, I find myself breaking down more and more. I stress out so much. Here is why yesterday was a TERRIBLE day:

1. Vintage "Gay" got the room that we asked and worked for. Flipping a coin...?? Really Mr. Foreman... >_<
2. School is barely letting me breathe

3. Mr. Foreman is a donkey

4. Gave me a dirty look because my mom didn't answer ONE of his calls. He said he called several times. WHATEVER LIAR.

5. Switched me to flute for the march to "try it out"

6. I'm guessing you can tell that I'm not very happy with him..lol

So all the pressure just built up and I couldn't handle it. My mom even asked if I wanted to quit band. I couldn't do that though. I'm only staying because of my friends (aka family).

Today was a little better. Tons of work still and it's SUPER hot everywhere I go. I hope I can make it this year. This is definitely not good for my health.

I'm happy with our band (Asian Persuasion! *thanks Joe*) Jeremy fits in so well with all of us. I hope our first cover, "Kiss Me" (New Found Glory version) goes well. I already memorized it. We MUST do amazing. I need to prove that we are Rad..hopefully we are.

-Riot!Ross